Tuesday, May 25, 2010
"I like to say to people," I replied, "we give you the gift of civilization and how do you treat us? You marginalize us."
I went on to say:
We discovered fire. I don't care if nobody wrote this down. Anyone crazy enough to go out into a burning forest and bring a flaming twig back inside a cave was not normal, was not thinking linearly, okay?
And just everything, from discovering America to painting the Sistine Chapel to writing Beethoven's Ninth to great poetry, great works of literature, to Isaac Newton, great works of science. I mean, literally, every field of human endeavor, we brought the world the gift of civilization and we get marginalized.
We also have to acknowledge the gifts within us. When the bad part of our illness is flaring up, I will trade it in for anything. But I'm not going to trade in my personality. I'll take it bad stuff and all. A lot of people are not there yet with that thought, and I respect that. But once you get your recovery up to a certain level, hey, acknowledge the gifts.
To me, the linear people [my term for so-called "normal" individuals] are dull and boring. I don't like hanging out with them. I much prefer the company of the non-linear people [that's us] which explains why my relationships are just terrible. Because I gravitate to these people.
The next question was seemingly unrelated:
"Before you were ever diagnosed," a lady asked, "did you ever self-medicate with alcohol or drugs?"
"Thank God I didn't," was my immediate response. Then it turned out I found a new angle on the theme I had just explored:
This is kind of a paradox, because growing up in the sixties and seventies - if you didn't do drugs you were really weird. But I didn't see what the big deal was because things are going in my head, I've got racing thoughts, visual things come in - and what people were describing, hey, that's me, normal.
I don't need to take anything. I inhaled and the stuff put me to sleep. If somebody is unfortunate enough to be born linear, maybe they need the drugs to be like us for a little while.
I know with a lot of our population we take drugs to self-medicate, but I think the linear people, they take the drugs to be like us.
Stay tuned for more Q and A ...